FAKE FAKe FAke Fake fake fakE faKE fAKE FAKE!

Bought a new packer, since mine got chopped of. I feel so... Incomplete without it. Could that also just a fake feeling?
Am I full of fake feelings? Maybe all of me is fake, or maybe I'm fake itself.
Meeting tomorrow. I'm not thrilled about like, before. I feel indifferent, if thats how you say it..

My desire of having beard gets stronger and stronger for everyday, makes me happy but still sad. I'm afraid that all "positive" feelings I have or get for feeling like a man is fake. Fake fake fake fake!

I'm tired, tired from working between7 and 9 hours a day for almost 4 days. I know, it might seem like nothing to others. But it's alot for me. I'm soo tired.
I have alot to do, but... I just don't have the energy to do it. I should be getting some clothes and stuff.. I just feel like... Nothing.
I have to eat. don't feel like it thou. I hate this! this sucks! I have that feeling, that.... &!%"#¤/!something is eating me up inside, it wants to get out! It feels like if it doesn't get out, it'll consume me instead.